Waiting


Today I was listening to a song, “While I’m Waiting”, by John Waller. It’s a favorite of my husbands and right now it has a lot of meaning for us as we prepare to leave the mission field. We continue to wait on the Lord for what He has planned for us next. Visit our website and read today’s blog post, “Waiting“.

I also ran across another song by John Waller today that I really like, called “As for Me and My House”. I don’t need to say much about the message of this song…. just listen to it and watch the video.. the message is clear.

As Christians we say that we have made the choice to serve the Lord, but so many times we allow other things to get in the way. Things in life become idols because we allow these things to consume us, we allow them to take our focus off Christ, we allow these things to steal our precious time… time that we should be spending honoring God and loving our families. Anything can become an idol, so it’s important that we truly do choose this day whom we will serve… “as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord” Joshua 24:15

My Life Verse(s)


Do you have a life-verse? I mean is there a Bible scripture that stands out from all others for you. Many people can quote specific scripture and will say,” this is my life-verse”. It’s a passage of scripture that has guided their life in some way and usually it’s a passage that they return to over and over.

Like many others, I had a few scripture passages that I might have called my favorites when I was young, but it wasn’t until I was 40 years old that I reached a point in life where God used a passage of scripture to speak to me and change my life. I accepted Christ at the age of 12, but I didn’t understand what it meant to have a close personal relationship with Him. Although I knew the Lord, I still tried to live life in “my” way and when “my” plans failed and I was exhausted and tired of trying to do things on my own, I cried out to God and finally surrendered all to Him. It was at this time in my life that God spoke to me three times through the same verse.

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Jeremiah 29:11 became my life-verse. For the first time in my life, I truly understood that God did have a plan for me and that He was only waiting for me to give up “my” will, “my” plans and allow Him to direct my paths.

I’ve learned that Jeremiah 29:11 is a favorite for many people and it is quoted often. This verse will always be a reminder to me that it’s not my plans or my will, but God’s plans and His will for my life that are important.

A few years later at a time when I was seeking the Lord and desiring to grow closer in my walk with Him, He led me back to Jeremiah 29. This time God spoke to me through Jeremiah 29:13.

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Many times God reminds me that if I will seek Him with my whole heart, I will find Him. At times when it seems that God is far off, I have to do a heart check and see if I’m truly seeking Him with all my heart, or is my heart divided between God and my own desires. I love this verse because it reminds me that God wants all of me and He is never far off when my heart is set on Him.

Recently, God has shown me a new life-verse. I’m not even sure of all that God wants me to learn from this scripture yet, but He has brought me to this verse many times over the past several months and I even used it as the tagline for this blog. It’s Micah 6:8.

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Over the past year, I’ve had a lot of questions about God’s plans for the future because a chapter in our life is closing. God is leading us to leave the mission field and return to the United States. What does the Lord require of [me]? God requires that I act justly — that I treat others fairly. God requires that I love mercy — which means that I extend mercy to others, just as God has been merciful to me. God requires that I walk [live] in a humble manner as I walk with Him. As I said, I’m not sure what all God really wants me to learn from Micah 6:8, but for this stage of my life, this is my life-verse and the simple instructions from God’s Word that I am trying to follow.

What’s your life-verse?

His Little Girl


I love the song; You’re My Little Girl by the band, Go Fish. Jason, one of the band members wrote this song for his wife. While they were still dating, she told him about her parent’s divorce and how much that had hurt her. Jason wanted her to know that no matter what she was going through or how others may hurt her, God is always there and He loves and protects her because she is His child — His little girl.

The first time I heard this song, I didn’t know the history behind it but it ministered to me for the same reason that he wrote the song. My parents divorced when I was sixteen. The pain and confusion over that event affected me for many years. Life changed dramatically at the moment that they announced their plans to divorce. My world seemed to turn upside down and for many years it just seemed to spiral out of control and way off course. I don’t blame my parent’s divorce for my world being out of control for so many years. The divorce was not my choice and it did change the course of  life… at least as I had thought it would be, but it was my own bad choices after that point that caused me pain.

I love the message of this song because it reminds me that I am a child of God. I’m His little girl, so no matter what this life hits me with, I can run to Him because that’s what little girls do when they are hurt, or scared, or confused, or sad. Daddy is always there to pick them up and wipe away their tears and daddy can protect his little girl from anything.

Throughout my life, I tried to use relationships to fill a void. In the end, these relationships caused more pain because of emotional and even some physical abuse. During these difficult years in my life, I didn’t fully understand that I had a heavenly Father waiting with open arms to comfort and protect His little girl. By the time I did run to Him, I was a frightened, emotionally damaged little girl who had lost what little self-worth I ever had. It has taken me years to learn that God sees me as His child, His little girl… the apple of His eye.

“For this is what the Lord Almighty says: “After the Glorious One has sent me against the nations that have plundered you—for whoever touches you touches the apple of his eye—”  Zachariah 2:8

Do you understand the message of this scripture? God is saying, “anyone who dares to touch my little girl is hurting my most precious possession”. Even an earthly dad would not allow someone to hurt their little girl, so how great is it to know that we are a child of God.

Have you been hurt by someone else? Perhaps someone you love has abandoned you in some way. Perhaps you felt the fear and pain of abuse. Maybe your spouse has betrayed you in some way. Maybe you are like me and your lack of self-worth prevents you from understanding that God sees you as the beautiful child that you truly are. If your self-worth depends on the approval of others such as your parents, your friends, or your spouse… you will only find disappointment. Only God can heal the hurt that someone else has caused and only He can love you the way that you need to be loved. He will protect you and never abandon you… because You’re His Little Girl.

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:2

Let Go


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I can relate to the words of Lindsay McCaul’s song, Let Go. So many times in my life, I held on to things far too long… things that weighed me down… things that made life more difficult. Why is it that we find it hard to let go and allow God to carry the things in life that are too much for us to handle? Nothing is too big, too heavy, or too hard for God, so why do we hurt ourselves when He stands there waiting for us to let go?

My husband is a big, strong guy and he can lift and carry a lot more weight than I can, so when there is heavy lifting to do, he handles that for me. I have some problems with my back and neck that actually makes it even more difficult for me to lift or carry anything of substantial weight. However at times I will lift heavy items on my own instead of depending on my husband and when I do this I usually end up with back pain. My husband reminds me that He would have taken care of the lifting if only I would just allow him. He is strong enough to do the lifting and to carry the heavy stuff with little effort, so He wonders why I don’t just let things go and let him take care of it.

In the same way that my husband is willing to make things easier for me and to help me avoid pain by carrying the load, God stands waiting and willing to carry our burdens, if we will only, let go. My husband can take care of the physically heavy stuff for me, if I let go and hand it over to him. God can take care of all the heavy stuff that others may not even be aware of. There are things in life that we hold on to and attempt to carry that can hurt us much deeper than just causing physical pain.

For many years, I had things in my life that was weighing me down. I was a single mom with a low paying job. I worried about finances and how I was going to pay the bills. I worried about my children because I knew that they were affected by every poor choice I had made. I was lonely, so I tried to fill the void with unhealthy and ungodly relationships. I was angry at people in my past that had hurt my children and me. I was angry at myself for allowing my life to get so out of control. I was ashamed of the person that I saw in the mirror. I was disappointed that life had not turned out as I had planned. I reached a point that I was physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted and I felt that I could not take another step. I could no longer handle the weight of the load I was carrying.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”   Phil.4:6-7

I knew the Lord during this time of my life. I was a child of God, but for some reason I refused to let go of the worry, the anger, the guilt, the disappointment, and the shame. Instead of letting go, I stumbled through life with this heavy load and I endured the pain. When I finally fell on my face in exhaustion, I cried out to God and asked Him to please take the burden off me. I remember the feeling of peace that I felt the moment I finally let go and gave it all to Him. Since that day in 2002, life has been so much easier. Life is not worry-free, nor is it pain-free, but life is easier because I’m not weighed down by things of the past or by things that I have no control over. I have peace because I know that God now carries all my concerns about my children, my finances, and my future. Since I let go, God has taken away the anger, the guilt, and the shame of my past. I no longer feel lonely because I walk with God and He assures me that He will never leave me alone.

Are you holding on to something that you need to allow God to carry for you? Let go and give it to Him. God can carry any load that you have. He carries mine and He can handle yours also. You can trust God to take care of your loved ones. He loves them more than you ever can. You can trust God with your worries about the future because He holds tomorrow. Let go and give him your worries, your grief, your pain, your bitterness, your anger, your unforgiveness, your guilt and shame.

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.”  1 Peter 5:7

God desires to carry our burdens but we must first let go. He will not pry open our hands and take things from us, but He does gently cradle our hands and assure us that everything is ok and that we can let go and place things in His hands. God wants us to trust Him with all we have… no matter how large or how small. It’s time to LET GO.

 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”  Matthew 11:28-30

Blessings in Brokenness



This morning, I listened to the song, Blessings by Laura Story. It’s a favorite of mine and it helps to remind me to look for blessings in every situation, especially in times of trials. Laura wrote this song after her husband was diagnosed with a brain tumor and went through multiple surgeries. I don’t know the entire story behind this song or exactly how God worked in Laura and her husband’s life through this trial, but I do know that God used this situation to inspire her to write this song. The song has ministered to me and I know it has done the same for many others. God is using Laura’s brokenness to bless others.

We hear people often question, why God allows bad things to happen to “good” people. I suppose that this question is really asking why Christians have to experience bad things in life. Christians or “good” people, regardless whether they are Christian, experience trials in life for the same reason that any other human does. We all live in a fallen world. The difference for Christians is that this world is not our home, so we take comfort knowing that the troubles of life are temporary. Some may think that just by believing in Christ, we are exempt from the pains of this life but that was never promised.

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”  John 16:33

We are not spared the trials that come in life, but because of our belief in Christ, we have hope that sustains us through difficult times and we possess peace that calms the storms. We may not avoid the storms but because of Christ we can peacefully endure them. Perhaps this is the best answer to the question, “why”. If Christians didn’t experience hardships then others would never witness how God provides strength to overcome. It is sometimes difficult to explain in words the peace that Christians have during times of illness or loss, but how we handle the trials can be a testimony of the power of Christ in us.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. “Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me”.  2 Cor. 12:9

God’s grace is sufficient to bring us through any storm and He can use even the most hurtful situation for good. Whatever you may be going through at this time may be preparing you to help someone else in the future.

” Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort,  who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.”  2 Cor. 1:3-4

Perhaps you are dealing with physical pain or coping with a disease, such as cancer, or perhaps it’s emotional pain, depression, or loneliness. Maybe you are grieving a loss or dealing with financial troubles. Whatever the cause of your suffering, God’s grace is sufficient.

My prayer is that God sustain you through this time; that He comforts you with a peace that only He can give. I pray also that God help you discover the blessings in your brokenness.